$3500: Fu🌟k money. I ONLY care about Results.

***What started off as a simple story about the bare basic monetary number I need to continue moving forward turned into a deeper confession. The content is as I intend it to be. What you think is none of my business and remember that the door is always open and it works both ways. The only two inaccuracies in the story are spiders, wasps and insects are the only other living things in my room and the flowers are hand crafted from my last stay in jail and posted on my dresser.

***This is a story about my current experiance on this journey through life. Prepare yourself to learn why my average day is over 17 hours long and why a work from home solution is the only way I have to make my vision a fact. Do not show sympathy or I will beleive you to be a liar and will loose all respect for you. My only request is you read with an open mind and try to understand.

 

$3500: Fu🌟k money. I ONLY care about Results.

HeartThrob sat at his desk, staring at the blank screen of his laptop. He felt a surge of frustration and despair as he tried to think of something to write. He had been working on his blog for months, hoping to share his vision and passion with the world. He wanted to make a difference, to help others who were struggling with addiction and mental health issues. He knew how it felt, because he had been there himself.

He reached for his notebook, where he had scribbled some ideas and calculations for his dream project: FlowersOfAppreciation. He envisioned a non-profit organization that would deliver flowers and messages of gratitude and support to people who needed them. He believed that a simple gesture of kindness could brighten someone’s day and inspire them to keep fighting. He had done some research and found out that he would need at least $3500 to get the legal process started, to fix his old truck and credit score, and to create a website. He had already invested all the money he had to get the bare basics he needed to start as he struggles to pay for his groceries and bills. He wondered how he could raise the rest.

He felt a tear roll down his cheek as he thought of all the obstacles and challenges he faced. He felt lonely and hopeless, as if no one understood or cared about him. He wished he had someone to talk to, someone who would listen and empathize with him. He looked around his small home office, which was cluttered with books, papers, and gadgets. The only living thing in the room was a little potted flower that he had dug up from the woods. it was no special flower to most however it added a dash of color and life to his office. He had named it by no name except Death, after the old tarot card of DEATH taped to the side as a reminder to himself of stories passed on from respected elders. In the circle of life, Death is not to end life. It is the end of a situation or event that is to continue into new growth and new opportunities. HeartThrob knew that he wanted the end of lonliness and pain.

He picked up the flower and held it close to his face. He whispered to it, as if it were a friend.

“Hello Death my friend. How are you today? You look beautiful, as always. I’m sorry I haven’t watered you in a while. I’ve been busy and distracted. But I promise I’ll take good care of you.”

He paused and sighed.

“Death my friend, I am having a hard time. I don’t know what to do. I have this dream of changing the world, one flower at a time. But I don’t have the resources or the support I need. I am frusterated and feel like giving up.”

He sobbed softly as he continued.

“You are the only one who knows my story. You know how much I’ve suffered in the past. You know how I have been through so much trauma. You know how I am afraid to sleep from the nightmares I have at night. You know how I struggle with drugs and work addiction trying to foget about the past and feelings of abandonment and lonlieness. You know how I ended up on the streets, homeless and hopeless. You know how I can be accepted by others and feel like I have to lie through omission to accomplish this and yet even in a room full of people I still feel missunderstood and alone.”

He wiped his eyes with the sleeve of his old worn out hoodie.

“But you also know how I turned my life around. You know how I went to rehab after getting arrested for a traffic stop and got an experiance that was contraversal. The knowlege was helpful and the medications they gave me I found out were supposed to have killed me. It cost me millions in lost property, the things I owned, relationships I had, my job and many other opportunities. You know how that one "speeding ticket" turned into years of repeating that cycle over and over and over again has caused fear in my life to own the things I want and to build relationships I want for people don't stick around when they have a biase and are not willing to listen or understand. After getting fired under false accusitions in the beginning of this year you know how it reinforces many of those personal beleifs of self worthlessness and fell into the addictive work personality of building a project online that will allow me to avoid people in person and where I can make a difference. When I talk about the reason as to why I moved up here I only talk about the possative things and the facts to support it, like driving over 100 miles to help with my grandma who was dieing of old age and cancer, sometimes twice a week, than decided to stay cause I moved in with my sister and the opportunity for work. The other half of the stoy is that if didn't stay and deal with this situation I am in I would be back on the streets living a life of excitment and making piles upon piles of money selling drugs and chaos all while holding a steady job so I can explain to others what I do and how I can afford they lifestyle I had. You know I struggle every day with the thought of making a years worth of wages in less than a month to now I can't even barely afford the bare neccesties of life. If it was not for being forced to learn and educate myself when I was younger the opportunity to earn the few dollars I get to pay for what I need would not be an option for me right now. So I struggle every day with the question, Is it worth getting robbed at gunpoint doing something illegal knowing I can go to whatever resteraunt I want an hour later versus counting out my soda cans saying ok I can only drink one today worth it? The fact as it stands is it has only been six months now. My average daily investment is over 17 hours. I have made some amazing connections. As I have always done, changed and impacted lives for the better by sharing my experiences. I have tried to blow my head off three times only to have the primer be dented by the firing pin of high quality ammo, tried hanging myself twice with climbing ropes that ended up breaking, I have lived through multiple poisonings, getting stabbed in the main artery in my inner theigh and falling asleep behind the wheel that knocked six full grown trees down at over 60 miles an hourI have experianced over 1500 traumas and it took me from the time I was born in 1985 untill the year 2023 for me to realize what my pourpose in life is. I never thought it would be as simple as a flower. It honestly took me about four or five months into my project for me to realize this, when I went from being a PFP art project than thought for a month or two non-profit and than officially declairing on 5/20/23 tat I am all in and thir is nothing that can stop me. I am an Innovative Solution Engineer. This means that I will find a creative way to accomplish my goals no matter the obsticle is. I don't have proof. I only have memories and notes. You want the proof than I suggest you go and talk to those who are around me. I do not care about money for financial gains. As a tool it is great leverage to accomplish a goal either good or bad. The only thing I care about is filling this void in my soul and it took me 38 1/2 years to find the one thing that helps and they are my FlowersOfAppreciation.”

He Finished crying and smiled faintly as he remembered.

“That’s when I met you, Death. You were the first flower I ever got for myself. You were the first thing that made me happy in a long time. You were the inspiration for my project: Flowers of Appreciation.”

He hugged the flower gently.

“Death, you’re my best friend. You’re always there for me, no matter what. You always listen to me, without judging or criticizing me. You always make me feel better, with your beauty and your scent.”

He kissed the flower softly.

“Thank you, Death. Thank you for everything.”

He put the flower back on his desk and looked at his notebook again.

He felt a new wave of determination and optimism wash over him.

He opened his laptop and started typing.

 

HeartThrob #FAE 
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MOST IMPORTAINT BLOGS:

heartthrob-and-the-flowers-of-appreciation  The story of my decision to go non-profit

starting-a-non-profit  Detailed list of Expenses Starting A Non-Profit (Revised 09-01-2023) 

dollar3500-fuk-money-i-only-care-about-results  $3500 USD Needed cost to fix credit to quaify for grants and funding and cost of non-profit filing fees.

something-about-differences  A look into they way I see the overwhelming bigotry in the world today

dear-diary A closer look into who I am and my Flowers

the-silent-killer  A story to bring #suicideawareness through the reality that most people miss the CLUES

i-tried-i-failed  A story (personal experiance) that relates to a common reason for suicide

cv-bio-and-cv  A Look into what I have learned in Web3

the-importance-of-the-purple-circle  A story showing the importaince of Connection, Family and Love

support-and-sponsorship  A story about how the extra support will help me move forward

grand-floral-rising  A story about starting a business with no resources. (Resources I found and use)

heartthrob-the-dandelion-networker  A story about overcomming trauma and creating a social network, non-profit and business.

 

FIRST WRITTEN BLOG:  kick-off-to-memorial-weekend

 

Here is a blog I did on my Thoughts and struggles on a bad day (Depression) the-last-flower

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